In The Beginning

In the beginning it seemed like a good idea at the time (don't get me wrong it's all been worthwhile) but whilst it's been mayhem at times, on occasions I have asked the question "why did I get myself into this situation?".

We have discussed having a family right from the start, when we got married and when I thought it was time let this happen I really wasn't ready for it.  About 3 years into the marriage when we started trying for a baby I was totally relaxed about it and my mindset was "if it happens it happens, if it doesn't, then at least I'll have enough time to start getting things sorted before it gets too late.  I expected to be trying for about a year but as it turned out, I fell pregnant within three months.  Shock was an understatement.

I was two weeks late with my period when I even entertained the possibility of a pregnancy and reluctantly bought a home pregnancy test.  I then left it for another week before I plucked up the courage to actually do the test.  When the reading came out "positive", all I could think of was "Oh my God, what have I done".

I was shocked but that gave way to elation a few days later.

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